Life is stressful

Well my family like most young families just starting out, have been struggling to meet ends meat. So we have been trying to come up with ideas on what we can do to be able to afford our own place, and health care. Sure most companies offer health benefits but the prices are outrageous! For a 3 family home it’s close to 1,000$ per month!!! 

Well my husband came home from work with an idea, to become a San Diego Police Officer. Immediately I started to panic, with all the crap going on and police being killed due to some crooked cops making them all look bad, what if someone hurt my husband, or God forbid, he dies in the line of duty!!! I respect him for wanting to choose such a profession but the thought of possibly losing him terrifies me to the very core. I need insight, ideas and advice. I’m so lost on this, but this would mean financial security for our family, we would never again have to worry how we would pay rent. But I just don’t know. Is it worth it? Is it worth possibly losing my husband because he was in the wrong place at the wrong time? Is it worth my son growing up not knowing his father? Is it worth having my son wonder what it would be like if daddy was around? Ugh advice anyone?