In-Laws…. Need I say more????

So, my mother in law, well shes a piece of work…where to start?

Well, for starters. My son was born with some health issues and because of that, he had to stay in the NICU for his first 3 weeks. I got sent home after week one, and the room he was in didnt have a bed so I couldnt stay with him. When i was discharged she had told me that I could borrow her car to be able to breastfeed him as much as possible because hubby had to work. She lived about 5 minutes (walking) from home to work. When I called her to set up a time to get the car from her, she texted me saying, and I quote: ” but if you have my car, then I cant come down and visit my baby sweetheart!” MEANING MY SON!!!! keep in mind, she cant visit without me or hubby due to nicu rules. Anyways, after that I didnt see her nor did she see my child until he was at least 2 months old. Fast forward a year. Now for the past 6 months we have shut her out due to her demanding that she be allowed to show up at our house every sunday and spend the day with me and my son! Dont get me wrong, I have no issue letting her come over every once in a while, but I will not be told what to do on anyones terms. I am his mother, not her! I have a right to privacy, and I shouldn have to adjust my life to make time for her every sunday from noon til 7pm. Every time she comes over, she throws off my sons schedule by not letting him nap cuz ” we dont nap when grandma visits!” anyways…..

So heres my issue. How do I get her to understand she doesnt make the rules, I DO! its my home my rules, I get no help from her whatsoever and neither does hubby. We support ourselves. I just dont want to feel like a guest in my own home, I have a schedule for my sons naps, feeding times, and bed times. but when she walks in its all about her…. what can I do???

UUUGGGHHHHH!!!!!!

Can you really be a writer if you havent written anything?

For years. I have wanted to be a writer, like legit writer of a newspaper article, or a magazine, or advice column. But the thing I really want is to write a novel. I am a big time reader, I can finish a 1,000 page book in less than 6 hours, but writing…. ohh boy. I just can’t seem to write anything. I sit at my computer trying to figure out what I wanna write about. and I sit and stare at a blank document watching the little line blink, waiting for me to press a key….. until I finally give up and forget about it for a few months. What can I do to get my thoughts to turn in to a freaking story? what am I doing wrong? why can’t I make it work???

Thinking is dangerous

So I’m lying in bed, thinking about all the bills I gotta pay, watching Sex and the City, when bam! Panic attack kicks my butt! Man these attacks are getting ridiculous, I feel like I have one every night! September can’t come soon enough! For those of you who don’t know I have to wait until late September to see my pain specialist. It would be great to have Carrie Bradshaws life! I’ve always wanted to be a writer, but I haven’t been able to put thoughts to paper, err, thoughts to tablet lol. My life is so uninteresting that there is no way I could write about MY life, I have so many great ideas but I just don’t know where to start. Maybe I should start with a creative writing course at the community college. The hard part is finding a class that I could take online, having fibromyalgia has really debilitated my social life, heck my life in general is so dull, it puts me to sleep! Literally!

Anyways, so I’m still working on this Neverending blanket for my mom, I’m doing the my picot beautiful shells, I feel like it takes forever the further you get into it. I’m going to stop procrastinating and get back to finishing my mom’s blanket so I can work on my step-MILs bday present. Her bday is at the end of august, so I don’t have much time!

Tick-tock-tick-tock  🕛🕧🕐🕜